Posted by swan600 on August 25, 2009, at 15:23:35
In reply to Re: Thinking about suicide - To SLS, posted by SLS on August 23, 2009, at 7:34:50
HI I AM NEW TO THIS FOROM BUT I AM SO GLAD I FOUND IT .I TO HAVE A HARD TIME LIVING ,I I AM BI OLAR ,HAVE CHONIC FATIGUE ,BAD BACK AN JOINTS,FIBROMYALGIA,I HAVE HAD A HARD TIME FINDING SOMETHING THAT WILL WORK ON ME ..I HAVE A HIGH TOLERANCE FOR MEDS AN A LOW TOLERANCE FOR AIN..I HAVE JUST BEEN UT ON MF COTIN 15MG. 3 DAILY .IT IS NOT KILLING THE PAIN ..ALSO MY PRIMARY CARE STARTED ME ON A TRIEL PACK OF SAVELLA..I AM GETTING WEAKER FROM ALL OF THIS ..I AM NOW 60 YEARS OLD .THE THOGHT OF TAKING MY LIFE IS ALWAYS WITH ME ..BUT I CAN LIVE THIS DAY ..IT IS HARD BUT YOU KEEP ON GOING .I SEEM TO BE FEELING BEETER THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS ..I HOPE IT CONTINUES ..IT IS HARD TO FIND A ANTIDEPRESSANT THAT WORKS FOR ME .I HAVE BEEN ON LEXAPRO FOR THE LAST FEW YEARS BUT IT ONLY KEEPS ME FROM GOING OVER THE EDGE IT DOES NOT MAKE ME SMILE. I HAVE TRIED TO TAKE MY LIFE ON SEVERAL OCASIONS ..THE LAST TIME I WAS ON A MACHINE FOR AWHILE .BUT I WANT TO LIVE ..I NEED TO LIVE ..SO DO YOU .I KNOW MY TRIGGERS NOW AN TRY TO AVOID THEM ..DO NOT GIVE UP ..THE NEXT TIME YOU HEAR SOMEONE KNOCKING OPEN THE DOOR..THERE IS MUCH TO BE SAID ..IT IS HARD TO GET THE DOCTERS TO UNDERSTAND ..AN GET TREATMENT THAT WORKS ..YOU GET TO WHERE YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPPEN ..JUST DO TODAY ..IT IS GOOD TO TALK WITH OTHERS WHO UNDERSTAND ..I HAVE A HUSBAND AN GRANDCHILD I CARE FOR PLUS A SON WHO IS DISABLED ..I AM SCRAPING THE SURFACE AN BARELY GETTING BY SOME DAYS I CAN HARDLY WALK OR THINK .I RESEARCH EVERYTHING LOOKING FOR ANSWERS ,BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I DO IS PRAY ..I AM STILL HERE.
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