Posted by bigcat on December 10, 2005, at 21:09:40
In reply to Thank you! » bigcat, posted by pseudoname on December 8, 2005, at 20:24:09
Hey There Psuedoname-
Your buprenorphine trial sounds like it is going very well, and I hope with time you will gain the confidence that it will continue to bring you relief. I was so pleased with what I read earlier, about you talking with your neighbor "like it was no big deal" and that it seemed very natural. It's amazing when something starts working how little things are no longer such monumental stresses. I particularly related to how you described your "usual" experience in such situations, replaying the encounter and obsessing about what she may be thinking of you for weeks afterwards.
I also liked how you said that you could "rise above" your thought patterns and acknowledge truths, even hurtful truths, that you were blocked from adressing earlier. This is sometimes painful, but also very liberating, as truly "feeling" pain is an indication that your emotions are returning. And accepting, without attaching, to this pain is a sure sign of progress. This change in perspective indicates that your reality has changed. I am very happy for you and commend your relentless determination to find something that will make you better.
I started the Effexor recently and while I'm currently immersed in the depression, I have had a brief taste of remission upon starting the med, so I'm sticking with it for now. But stories like your Bupe trial are encouraging, reminding me that there are always still options available.
I see people like you and me as fighters, not labrats (I'd try the bupe in second, and wouldn't wait to see how your trial turned out before diving in). There is so much misinformation out there that hinders psychopharmacology, and the "whatever it takes" philosophy is one that we have both dedicated our lives to.
I swear by the Magnesium Citrate. It is the one constant I can rely on the alleviate what amounts to the most acute side effect I get from AD's. Hope it treats you equally as well.