Posted by LT on January 19, 1999, at 12:29:02
In reply to Re: Celexa and increased mood swings, posted by David K. on January 19, 1999, at 5:10:50
> Good morning!
> Well, I think I slept through the night (I don't remember waking up, especially not the 37 times I usually do.) I took the Ambien at, oh, 8:30 maybe (I couldn't wait) and woke up on cue at 5:25a,, five minutes before the alarm went off. So at least I got some sleep & I don't feel as ornery as I have over the past few days (although I'm sure the Plant Manager at work will change that. He's a bad, bad man. And no help to ANYONE'S mental health.)
> I often wonder about that "What is normal?" thing ... I don't want to get into it right now, but sometimes it seems that wanting to die SHOULD be acceptable. (Of course, that would only count for when I want to die, not anyone else! Then I'd try to talk them out of it!)
> I see my Dr. every week, and it helps even when I'm not feeling so bad. I'm a good faker, and most people don't suspect that I've got any problems and even DON'T BELIEVE ME when I try to tell them. (One guy thought it was just my wacky sense of humor when I told him I was seeing a pschiatrist. I figured that if it was soooooo unbelieveable to him, I'd let him think I was kidding. But he told me, "Depression? You're not depressed.") And when I'm on the phone at work people say, "Oh, you're always so chipper!" I tell 'em it's a big lie, and they laugh and laugh... "Oh, Dave, you're so funny!"
> Hmm. At least I'm amusing. Now dance, Monkey Boy!
> (Oh yeah ... I often wish I'd find out I had '3 months' (that's too long!) to live. I think I like that idea because it's a lot less work than having to do something about it myself. Maybe I can hire a contract killer to rub me out?)
Hi David, I thought I was president of the faker's club! My phychiatrist even commented that I didn't look depressed. I go to work every day, (almost) do my job, which is counseling enemployed people, and be thinking at the same time about the possibility of not feeling like this anylonger, whether it be a hit man or whatever! Celexa isn't working along with every other damn drug imaginable. Glad to know someone else goes through life like this. Going to shrink to day to discuss ECT, or hit man. (feeble attempt at humor!)
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