Posted by zeugma on January 12, 2005, at 18:34:29
In reply to Re: me me me (trigger), posted by alexandra_k on January 12, 2005, at 18:06:37
cost effective. that term has an odd resonance.I am doing the cost effective thing by firing an incompetent therapist. but all therapists with a bare exception have been incompetent, unhelpful, downright bad for my mental health.
my stint with CBT was typical. thoughts precede feelings so my thoughts were meticulously logged and analyzed and my anxiety worsened.evidence that the treatment was not successful could not count, because the theory HAD to be true, thoughts must precede feelings. it was my thoughts that were blamed. until i had the thought to discontinue treatment. it was a good one, on strictly empirical grounds (i.e. my plan to hospitalize myself that i had worked out with her in case my difficulties with treatment overwhelmed me [and that were blamed on my thoughts, not on the treatment]was forgotten as soon as i stopped paying her. i made the cost effective decision.)
i wish there were a profession called psychotherapy that was not analagous to your crisis center that blames you for your crises.
i have encountered this too often for me to count it cost effective. and it is a business. and there is not a sadder one to be found.
and i feel guilty when i fire therapists. but i wish they were helpful. that is all.
-z
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