Posted by Impermanence on October 27, 2009, at 13:55:46
In reply to suicide, posted by Impermanence on October 26, 2009, at 3:22:23
I'm sorry guys, I'm feeling so low right now, I hate to regress, but I can't help it, I need to tell people how I feel without going out without anybody knowing why. I might send a text to my mother linking her to this wonderful forum so she can understand why.
I've tried to feel better but the bloody booze and diazepam just wont let me feel OK.
I've found 50 Dormidina in the kitchen, it's a sedating antihistamine, and my mate gave me 12 80 mg oxycontins, and four 1mg Royhipnol, he's a recovering addict and has copious amounts of drugs to deal with his desperate attempt to get of methadone. He thinks I'm just suffering from back pain and insomnia, I feel guilty for not letting him know the truth. Those meds coupled with my diazepam and alcohol should do the trick. Well it's better than hanging myself.
I've tried so hard to avoid doing this but I'm just so depressed right now, I'm trying to shake it off, I know I'm so lucky to live where I live and have wonderful people that care about me but booze just sucks me into a black hole sometimes.
I'm getting really drunk right now, gonna smoke a spliff and hopefully that will put me to sleep, it's AK47 BTW, fantastic weed.
I still don't know what you mean by babble mail? Is it a Dr Bob email client? Nobody explained it to me?
I'm feel so upset I let some you you beautiful people down.
I might not go through with this yet, I just need time to think and get stoned. It's a really stupid thing to do, I know that, life is a beautiful miracle and suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Love and respect to you all. xx
poster:Impermanence
thread:922543
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