Posted by AuntieMel on May 17, 2005, at 11:31:45
In reply to A *little* calmer... but... » chemist, posted by AMD on May 16, 2005, at 2:16:00
For what my opinion's worth.
You seem to be going up and down, back and forth with blinding speed, and it's getting quicker, not slower. You hate what you are doing, but don't seem to be able to stop. Each trip out convinces you that you have done some type of severe damage to your body.
One of two things seem to be likely - either you no longer have control over what you do or you are actually intending to do harm to yourself.
If the first is true, please check yourself into rehab. It sounds like controlled detox is in order, and the folks in hospital will at least give you rudimentary skills to go forward.
Following that with intensive outpatient therapy will help round out the toolbox.
I've done it. It didn't hurt and I'm still dry 2 years later.
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