Posted by AMD on May 15, 2005, at 23:33:38
In reply to Re: ... » AMD, posted by chemist on May 15, 2005, at 2:54:16
No sooner am I feeling better than I'm out drinking and "drugging," as the NA'ers so lovingly call it, again. From Thursday night until 3 p.m. the day after. And then going to the office Friday, smelling of alcohol, before realizing -- hmm, perhaps that's not the best idea.
This was Thursday night, and now it's Sunday, and yet, unlike any time before, *I still feel high*. Not high, "cocaine high," but high "Ican'tseemtotypefastenoughandmythoughtsarenotclear " high.
I don't see how this could possibly be the cocaine from the other night -- it's been, what, ~57 hours? I can't even add. What did I do to myself? For the first time in my life I literally feel like I am going crazy.
And I read these messages and want to cry, because you guys have been so supportive, and I have been nothing but a complete and utter failure.
This is either:
a) serious alcohol withdrawal-related dementia;
b) cocaine psychosis;
c) a full-blown manic episode;
d) something too terrible to write down.
Everything I've written in the past two months feels like a cakewalk compared to this. What is going on? Help!
amd
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