Posted by partlycloudy on October 14, 2004, at 14:57:19
In reply to Supporting each other in this forum, posted by partlycloudy on October 14, 2004, at 7:18:58
Hi everyone, I just want to thank youse guys for coming to my party. I come from a fine, long line of alcoholics and I am glad to say in part that it ends with me - no kids to pass these bum genes to.
Every day is different - sometimes a struggle, sometimes no problem to stay sober. Other days, planning where I will stop and shop on the way home is all I can think about. Being alone with myself in this head is the least comfortable place for me, and drinking puts me nicely into the oblivion I crave. My goal is to be happy enough with myself to stand spending an evening alone and sober, but they are rare.
I am taking medication for bipolar2 (mostly depressed, not much mania), anxiety, and panic attacks. The booze does NOT make me happy, nor does it calm me down. It just takes me out of the picture.
OK, that's that.
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