Posted by jay2112 on December 1, 2019, at 0:53:41
In reply to Re: Dilemma..could use some opinions please...., posted by alexandra_k on November 30, 2019, at 23:41:37
No, no...please..feel free to go on! This is about sharing.
My (still) problem is that I feel overwhelmed easily, sit around, then wait till it becomes a horrid mess, then fall to pieces. I have nothing nice (except a beautiful little dog I love for eternity), and I have lost all interest in life. I used to love music...when I had a job and could drop 2,000 on a new instrument. Now I can't even afford a microwave. I hate the guys who live in my current complex...all's they do is drink beer, drugs, and are ignorant pigs. I was brought up on books, poetry, music....like Fred Nietzsche said.."life without music would be a mistake". Now, I sleep in a dilapidated bed, the box spring caved in, a filthy bathroom (makes me even more depressed), messy kitchen. I barely eat because I not only have no room to cook, but not much gives me pleasure. Sorry to sound so down. I don't have much pride anymore. BUT...I want to go out there and make my make. I am a deeply compassionate social worker. But, experience is seen as baggage, not as an asset. I feel your pain in getting into your profession.
Someone said, they never fear a thing
Well, I do
And I'm afraid enough for both of us,
For me and you
Time, if nothing else, will do it's worst
So do me a favour, and tell me the good news first
poster:jay2112
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