Posted by sigismund on June 30, 2018, at 2:10:48
In reply to Re: Are you okay scott? » alexandra_k, posted by SLS on June 29, 2018, at 12:59:45
>Life has passed me by. I have lived only moments of it a few hours or days at a time in remission. Pain and frustration. A life of vegetation. Lying in bed or on a couch for 40 years. My mind is dormant and my perceptions numbed to the world around me. No achievements. My contemporaries have had full lives and are now retiring. I have had nothing and could never catch up to ensure that I have care in old age. When I was young, my illness seemed to be but a temporary pause in my life. I had my whole life ahead of me. I dont any more. It is too late for me. I was born too early. What do I have to look forward to? Struggle? Frustration? Pain? Anxiety? Even were I to get better tomorrow, how would I accept the great loss? I have been in solitary confinement, imprisoned within bars that no man can penetrate or remove.
Yes. Your words ring true. How to accept it? I want to acknowledge the way you feel..I'm not sure how being born later would have helped, but I do understand what you mean. Who knows anyway?
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