Posted by alexandra_k on July 8, 2013, at 21:32:33
In reply to Re: I want to live somewhere else, posted by baseball55 on July 8, 2013, at 20:09:16
i really want / need my own place.
i can't really relax if i feel like someone will do the knock knock knock and then barge in thing.
or, if they bang insistently expecting an answer since they know that i'm home.
isn't it odd how they think i'd be rude to ignore them and yet they don't think they are rude for requiring my attention when i'm busy attending to other things.
isn't it odd how they think i'm being rude in turning down invitations to dinner and yet they don't think they are being rude in expecting / demanding my presence.
as soon as i go into the kitchen someone manages to place themselves in front of whatever it is that i need yapping incessantly about nothing so i can't get hot water from the kettle or a spoon for my yoghurt or whatever without 'rudely' interrupting them to request they move out the way.
why can't people just leave me be?
i do need to live with other graduate students / academics.
it is a different way of life. it isn't a way of life that very many non-academics understand... i can say 'i just want a quiet space so i can get on with my thesis' until i am blue in the face... i may as well be speaking in klingon.
and of course it isn't quite about that...
home for me... is a refuge from people. i don't want to socialize with people at home. when i want to socialize i want to get away from home to do it. i've moved wings in a hall of residence because i found myself making friends with (hanging out with) the people in my wing. once i moved i visited them a lot. but i needed my own home to get to at the end of the day. the people in my wing... ships passing in the night. because i would of course rather have my own place. where i didn't need to wait for the bathroom or for you to get out of the kitchen. where i didn't have to listen to your tv noises. where i didn't have to wear headphones so i didn't disturb you with mine.
i just want to do my thing...
i can only relax when i'm alone.
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