Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on May 9, 2009, at 23:24:17
Oh, I didn't know if I should post this. Well, my buddy, from work, and I decided to have a little "mini-vacation" and drove the 8 hours to Montreal. We lived like KINGS. Drove in a brand new luxury rental car..stayed at a classy 5 star hotel...spent..ummm..something close to 2 + three 0's after it in three days. :0. ANNNNNDD..well, we lived the Montreal high-night life!!!! All bars are open until 3am, and after they have tons of nice "underground" clubs that go until 8-9am. Then you go back to the hotel and sleep until 3 in the afternoon, go for a luxury dinner, blow 500 bucks at the casino, 400 bucks on drinks, and back to the clubs again.
But...I am hesitating here...'cause I did something I feel very bad about. Yes, it involves the "other" sex. See, some Montreal women are,ummm, rather 'liberal'. And, I just got caught up in it all, and I and my bud where bringing a few in the cab home for two...nights. And...I REALLY felt like SH*T!!! That was just SOOOOOO not me! I am almost 40 fer gawwdds sake! (My friend is only 24, so he had an excuse..lol.) Now, I am home, and deeeeply depressed, and feel so empty, lost, and feel rather cheap and sleazy. A beautiful (well, on the surface, anyways...that really doesn't mean much to me) woman will spend the night with me, but no women will dare answer my personals ad!! WTF!?!?!?
I REALLY need some answers. This is a BIG part of my depression. I've been listening to 30-40 cd's over the past day, feeling the pain in the songs I love ("Let Love In" by the Goo Goo Dolls.."My Private Nation" by Train...to name a few)..trying to find SOME kind of answer. Lost...in the starless night..
Signed,
Sleepless in Southern Ontario
poster:Jay_Bravest_Face
thread:894961
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