Posted by TexasChic on July 16, 2008, at 21:42:05
In reply to I'm thinking of you » TexasChic, posted by Dinah on July 16, 2008, at 14:13:50
They just blew off everything I said. My bosses boss completely flipped sides from the last time I talked to him. He said I was just not doing as well as the others in my position, even one who had been there a shorter time than me. I started to say something because the others in my position have both been there over 10 years, but he interrupted me and said he wasn't going to get into that. I also tried to point out that my boss had never brought up any of this stuff I'm supposedly sucking at until about 2-3 months ago (the HR lady even made a point of saying that when I met with her), but my boss said she HAD written stuff like that on my review and she could show it to me. At that point I didn't even want to continue. I knew she would just twist something to fit what she wanted. And believe me, I was sick to death of both of them by that time.
Its ridiculous because everybody who works with me and actually knows something about what I do (which believe me, my boss doesn't) thinks I do a better than average job. I'm the one who everybody comes to with questions for crying out loud!
As for the ADD stuff, they said if it interfered with my job then I needed to find another one. I didn't even get to the part about her putting things in writing. At the end I was just like, okay, then I have nothing else to say. Then I got to work until 9PM tonight. Nice, huh? I cried the whole last 3 hours (nobody else was there - my boss was in the building but elsewhere).
I have a doctor's appointment first thing in the morning, maybe she'll say I'm unfit for work. Then later I have an appointment with HR (that I made). I don't expect anything to come of it, but I figured I could at least tell her what happened at the meeting, and maybe find out what's going on with the investigation. I also called the employee assistance line that is a benefit from my insurance, which provides three free visits with a T. I could choose pretty much whoever took my insurance. So I have an appointment on Saturday.
I'd still like to go to my bosses bosses boss. He's really nice and seems to like me. But I just don't think I can go through it again. I am really bottoming out here. I'm not in the mind to do myself hard, but I'm feeling really bad.
I didn't talk to my coworker who works with me under my boss and she didn't talk to me. I think she just knew to leave me alone. Eventually we'll have to talk since we work together, but I just don't know what I'll end up saying.
Time to start the heavy duty job hunt I guess. Did I mention that I've applied to over 50 jobs online in the last month and a half? Maybe something will come through for me.
-T
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