Posted by Fivefires on February 22, 2008, at 20:47:46
In reply to Re: I want to die *trigger*, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on February 22, 2008, at 16:43:58
> ((((((fivef)))))))))
Lurp'
> I'm sorry that I haven't been on psychobabble much lately. It sounds like you need all the support and gentle hugs that we can offer.
>I, as well, haven't been on babble enuf' and need it now.
> CS is a wise and wonderful woman
Yes she is.
>- nicotine patch might be just the trick to survive a 6 hour wait.>
Never tried one, but, believe it or not, I have one in my purse ICOE.
> Fridays are bad at the ER though. you've got that right.>
These women came over and will get back in touch w/ me Mon. They mentioned the prior re: weekends as well.
> It sounds like you are doing a lot of remembering, in putting together this narrative of abuse history. That is likely to stir up all the horrible feelings and then some. Please be careful. you don't need to do everything overnight. Do you have a T/pdoc/social worker to help you process all of the memories that may be triggered?>
This is strange L.
I must have *accidentally deleted posts after ClearSkies and b4 yours*. Sorry all.
No L. Never had anyone to really 'process these memories with'. All Ts want me to push it back, away, and replace it w/ thoughts, mantras, or skills, and I don't think it works or has worked for me. I had 8mos of DBT. Suppose CBT similar.
As moving, will be getting new therapist.
Wonder if I could find one that would treat me 'the old-fashioned way'; let me get it out. Society doesn't let me; fam' doesn't let me. I believe this kind of therapy has a name or names.(?) Maybe Gestalt, but that's just a guess.
I could cry an ocean. There's so much feeling bad in me that I can barely breathe sometimes. If can't get it out, I'll become a bitter and angry person, or, maybe that is me now.(?)
TY for saying 'process'.
I know you are not telling me what I need. I mean, whatever I do, I take responsibility for, and maybe you even disagree w/ this the type of therapy 'I think might need'. It's the old-fashioned therapy; I've thought of this b4.
Do you or any1 think this may be just what I need, and can any1 give me the proper term for this kind of therapy?
> ((((((((((((((((fivefires))))))))))))))))))))))
>
> please take good care of yourself. you've made it this far, you can make it through the 6 hours it takes for an admission
>I missed my doc appt this a.m. (pcp) as having horrible stomach/digestion probs probably from the stress. I told my daughter how I was feeling and I'm sure she'll call again tonight, tho' has plenty to deal w/ herself.
I was online earlier responding to some fam' emails and didn't see any posts; thought maybe I'd erred in responding to ClearSkies.
I'm sure it was prob' me doing something wrong.
Last eve' b4 logged off I spilled an entire can of pepsi in and on my desk; all supplies. Cleaned out the two drawers and everything in them. Now for the carpet. I guess I was lucky not to have hit the keyboard, printer, or pute, awa my cell phone which was sitting right here.
Pls bear (Okay. Here's an example of my cognitive troubles. Knowing whether to use 'bare' or 'bear' would have been a cinch, but I'm looking at it now and I'm not sure. I can't transc*ibe if do such things.) with me here, as responding to just one person seems to take all my energy. I am so sorry I missed you all in the middle and I will get to your responses of course, but pls be patient w/ me. It's not that I don't want to say so much to u all right now; it's that I just can't.
If u would please, any1, help me not to break the 3-post rule, if it seems you sense me needing to respond to another post. That would be nice.
> ll
I've missed u; good to see you again.
((((ll))))
5f
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