Posted by TexasChic on April 4, 2006, at 18:31:02
Yesterday I was working, looking for a file I saved somewhere(?) accidently. I decide to see if I saved it in someone else's folder. Now these are supposed to be work-related only folders (management harps on that), although people do save personal stuff, jokes, funny pictures and what not. Recently my co-workers have been doing funny pictures of each other, saved here and there in each other's folders, and everyone has been going to look at them on their own. So as I'm looking for my lost file, my paranioa kicks in and I start thinking the girls ignoring me probably did an insulting picture of me. So I checked their folders real quick for new files, and not finding anything, went back to what I was doing. I really didn't think anything else about it.
So today I'm just going along working when I come to one of the girl's folder and find a message addressed to me. It said Get the F*ck out [my name]. So I did a search of my name and found several of these, some they had put in the folder of a girl who is out this week but part of their entourage. Cold-shoulder-girl's folder just said 'Get out!!!' I vaguely remember they may have been standing behind me when I was looking for that lost file, but I didn't think I was doing anything wrong, so I didn't think anything about it. Of course when my paranoia kicked in and I looked for something about me, I actually was snooping. But I knew they couldn't know what I was thinking, so once again I didn't think anything of it.
So, apparently they looked over my shoulder and saw I was looking in their folders. The girl that gave me the trouble last summer did something similiar back then, when she was apparently looking over my shoulder while I was moving some icons around (wasting time on a slow day) and she told everyone all I do is move my icons around all day.
The worst part is I don't remember what I may have opened up and looked at because I have this tendency to go around randomly opening folders on the computer. Its a kind of OCD thing I think, where when I feel overwhelmed, I just go around clicking on folders randomly and opening them and things inside them. Its hard to explain, but basically it means I don't know if they saw me open something of theirs or not, rather than just looking in the folders. I honestly don't remember.
As I was leaving work I pulled a girl aside who has had her own problems with them, and told her what happened (excluding the part that I looked for something about me). She said if it was her, she'd have a meeting with them both and the supervisor, and ask them what the hell they think they're doing. But see, I have the guilt that I actually was snooping a little, so I have this fear of getting found out and... I don't know, that they'll spread it around and make other people not like me or something.
So now I don't know what to do. I thought of writing a reply message to their's, but I feel like that's being as childish as they are (although I still may not be able to help myself tomorrow). I'd like to confront them face to face, but the last time I tried that I shook like a leaf and could barely keep from crying - which is not the type of impression I'd like to give.
I don't think it would bother me so much if they weren't such an influence on other people at work that I want to be friends with. I definitely got the cold shoulder from one girl who was suddenly been hanging out with them more than usual today.
So here I am feeling guilty for snooping, but apparently I had good reason to do it! I don't know if that justifies it though.
-T
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