Posted by TexasChic on January 13, 2006, at 20:32:02
The totally gorgeous 22 year old at work that I'm so jealous of got a new job and we went out for drinks for her last day. (Let's not even go into how guilty I feel because she is so cool and sweet, but yet I still think bad things about her because she's young, pretty, and a size 6. Am I really that petty???) Of course cute boy was there. At the end of the night, she asked me, in reference to going for a certain guy at work, "What about ____?" I told her, "Well, he's married (even though I know he's separated), but since you're going I'll confess what I never have to anyone else, I have a huge crush on 'cute boy', but I know he doesn't feel the same." I looked up and cute boy was looking at me with a weird smile on his face like, 'I know you're talking about me.' I don't know if he actually knew what we were saying (God, I hope he couldn't hear me or anthing), but I think he was very aware we were talking about him (maybe she was looking at him the whole time I was talking, I don't know). Her response was something like, "Yeah, okay." So of course I read a million things into that, like she knows he would never possibly be interested in me or something because he told her. Damn, I hope she doesn't say anything. I was kind of drunk (and still am).
Am I completely crazy to think he might be interested in me? I just don't know. I want to let it go so bad, but its so hard when I sit beside him at work everyday. God, why do I like him so much??? Am I being obsessive? Or am I feeling true feelings toward him? This sucks so bad!!! Will someone I'm infatuated with ever like me back??? It seems as if I'm destined not to know how that feels.
I just want to kiss him.
-T
poster:TexasChic
thread:598840
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