Posted by JenStar on June 1, 2005, at 16:55:24
In reply to Re: That's it, I've had enough *trigger*, posted by Deneb on June 1, 2005, at 16:38:47
hi Deneb,
First of all,
give yourself credit. You went to the doctor and talked to her honestly, you said. That took a lot of courage! I'm glad you tried it.You then said that you could try to "show" them all by hurting yourself. But you'd be the big loser in that equation - if you hurt yourself to make a point, the only person you end up destroying or "showing" is YOU. You'd be showing yourself that you don't have a future, that you're NOT in control, and that you don't matter. You'd be "showing" that you're a loser, because you lost a chance at a good and productive life. The further down the road of self-destruction you go, the more twisted & difficult it will be to get out.
I know I'm lecturing and you're probably tuned out (or mad at me again! Sorry!). I mean, scrapbooking and gardening are obviously not going to do it for you. You need something more. But don't give up on yourself. If this doctor isn't good, find another one.
You said that this doctor speaks Cantonese. Is she an herbalist or an expert in traditional Chinese medicine? Does she focus more on Western medicine, or more on Eastern techniques of relaxation & control? Can you tell her that she didn't help you at all, and that you either want a medication or a referral to another doctor?
I'm trying to think of ways to get the problem solved without hurting yourself. Pretend that someone was going to give you a million dollars if you solved the problem of how an imaginary "Jenny Deneb" was going to get herself help, even though her doctor only talked about scrapbooks. I bet if there was enough motivation you could come up with tons of clever ideas. Just equate yourself to a million dollars. YOu're a precious person. There are ways to fix the situation without hurting yourself.
Take care.
JenStar
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