Posted by Deneb on May 31, 2005, at 21:43:18
In reply to Re: Deneb, I replied to you over on Social..:-) » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k on May 31, 2005, at 21:13:01
> I know you are going through a hard time right now.
> Trying to figure out how much it is okay to express your feelings; your frustration and pain and hopelessness and anger and your thoughts on suicide
> And trying to figure out how much you have to curb that in order to not upset others.
> There is a balance, a middle way
> But it can be hard to find...(((Alexandra))) You describe my situation with great eloquence and understanding. I think you are right...I'm trying to find a balance...it is very difficult...both the balancing and the impulse control.
> Then I try to post something in response to someone elses thread. A thoughtful response. To support them the way I would like other people to support me.
> To model for others the kind of response I would like for myself.
> I could stand to get a lot better at that ;-)I think you are very good at supporting others. :-) You're certainly a model for me.
> With respect to suicide...
> There are people here at different places.Thanks for explaining that to me. It's difficult for me understand that other people do not think about it all the time like I do.
> I don't mind if you talk about having suicidal ideation
> But I don't want to hear specific details.I'm just not sure still about what the difference is...please help me understand. I've been thinking that all my "bad" posts have been about ideations. For the future should I simply state that: "I have suicidal ideations right now"?...instead of saying something like: I feel like I want to take X and do Y?
> By the way:
>
> It was after you said you wished you could make the Babble party but you couldn't that Dr Bob suggested Toronto for 2006.
>
> He wouldn't have done that if he really didn't want to meet you.Yes, I know. I'm starting to think that maybe there is something really wrong with me sometimes...it's like I can't control what I'm thinking and I start thinking really bizarre things. Thankfully it usually doesn't last too long. I'm still trying to understand what exactly is the matter with me. I promise I'm going to try really really hard to get myself together.
Thank-you so much for the explaination Alexandra. I understand the boundaries a little better now. It helps me to know how I can make others feel better and not harm them. Thanks again so much. Please forgive my lack of social skills.
jenny
>
poster:Deneb
thread:505771
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20050525/msgs/506060.html