Posted by alesta on May 11, 2005, at 2:49:44
In reply to Block me you m***er f***er, posted by Shy_Girl on May 6, 2005, at 11:32:03
hi again jenny,:)
just wanted to add a little personal info on this topic..thought it might help..i had borderline personality disorder in my teens and early - mid twenties..i did the cutting and everything, burned myself with cigarettes..punched my fist through a glass window..you get the picture..i had constant rages over little things..my poor boyfriend at the time..one minute i'd be laughing and the next i'd be crying hysterically and furious with him..he was good to me, too. figures..anyway, what i'm driving at is that the disorder, for me, fell by the wayside over time..i no longer cut..haven't in about 8 years..but i was constantly *working on myself*..i made it my priority..no therapists, just me figuring me out..(i'm not saying that you shouldn't seek therapy by any means...i think it's something you need to work through...i don't think you should always just jump at a med for every problem..you need to change your cognitions, your way of being in the world..just my opinion..others are free to disagree. but, actually, if taking a med does actually help you, by all means, take it. i can't say whether it will help or not..talk to your doctor and, better yet, do your own research..
the reason i had the disorder, i believe, is b/c my mother would not let me have an identity of my own..thereby creating the emptiness i felt. i had to live through her and for her and wasn't able to think about myself at all. a very odd state to live in as a child for so many years. hence, the disorder. this is why you must unlearn your old way of existing and forge your own identity..but, again, a med may or may not help...time will also help. let's not forget time.:)
(btw, to anyone reading wondering if i still have this disorder because of my current suicidality, you would be incorrect. my suicidality at this time is due to severe depression, a normal reaction to the unrelenting series of crises and traumas i have faced as of late. i may have some PTSD as well..)
hope it might help that i shared that..:)
take care jenny.
amy
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