Posted by Angel Girl on June 15, 2004, at 4:48:30
Does anybody else besides me have a problem of letting go of things said to you that have upset you?
I recently did something very stupid because I act so impulsively and I upset somebody. I have since apologized to the girl and she told me to not worry about it, she forgave me because she is a Christian and it is the Christian thing to do.
However, since then, she has had a change of heart and refuses to talk with me. Nothing else has transpired between us for her to change her mind. I don't understand. If she is a Christian and it is the Christian thing to do to forgive and forget, then why would she change her mind?
It's driving me CRAZY. I tried e-mailing her to find out what happened to change her mind and I was extremely nice in my e-mail but I didn't receive a reply.
I can't seem to let this go. I need to know what possessed her to change her mind, especially since she said it was 'the Christian thing to do'.
Things like this REALLY upset me. I can't seem to get past them. I want so much to know why she changed her mind. She never even gave me a 2nd chance.
Everybody says she is the most sweetest and kindest person you could ever meet, so why would she do this to me?
It's driving me crazy. It's taking every little bit of willpower I have to not e-mail her again. She obviously wants nothing to do with me, so why can't I leave it at that? Why do I always feel the need to have everybody like me? And the more I want that, the more I push everybody away from me.
Why does everybody eventually end up leaving me? Am I that bad a person that I deserve to be by myself the rest of my life?
AG
poster:Angel Girl
thread:356809
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