Posted by karen_kay on June 7, 2004, at 19:49:17
In reply to I give up, posted by Racer on June 7, 2004, at 18:32:26
if your pdoc isn't taking you seriously, then MAKE him! if he doesn't acknowledge your pain, MAKE him! if it takes running through his office completely naked, with your fists high in the air, screaming, "dr eyecandy,it's go time!" then DO IT! if you want, i'll join you, i'll even hold him down so you can get a few good punches in before security comes aknockin!
sometimes doctors don't realize how much pain we are in (nor would i want anyone who doesn't know to actually 'know' it). sometimes we have to tell them, and tell them in such a way that they take us seriously. if it means calling him 36 times a day, do it. give me his number and i'll help!
BUT don't you give up. you're a firecracker and i think you've yet to light the fuse on him. set fire to his butt and MAKE him work for you!
and about beating yourself up.... don't! so, you aren't doing everything you want to. who is? you're doing a heck of alot right now by staying alive. and that's not always an easy task. little things like exercise, household chores, ect. can wait until you feel better. now, you just need to know in your heart how much you are doing. that's not an easy task, granted, but racer you do so much! it is a struggle to keep going everyday and that's the biggest thing you are doing right now! that's much more important than those other tasks that can wait. and much harder! so, sit on the couch and add ice cream to your diet, because if you're struggling right now, ice cream makes the struggle almost worth it at times.
and about leaving the house and pretending to be normal.... don't bother, that's too much effort. just leave the house. don't worry about pretending to be normal. if you cry, big deal! we all cry at times. if you're hateful, so what? i'm sure you aren't going to be the most hateful person out there. go get your hair cut. perhaps you'll feel better after getting your hair done? i always do, no matter how poopy i'm feeling. and i'm certain you'll look beautiful after you get your hair cut and styled.
racer, you've been fighting this for years. and you still have alot of fight left in you. don't give up now. stay close to the people who help you through times like this. stay away from those who don't (except your pdoc... and in his case, ride his butt until he hears you!). but, most importantly don't you give up jsut yet! i think that it's when people are ready to give up that they actually find the answers because they have to!
i wish i was there to make you feel better racer. i wish i could stroke your hair and tell you everything will be ok. but, i can't be there. so, just listen to me when i say YOU ARE MUCH TOO STRONG TO GIVE UP NOW! (and if the guilt trip helps, there are many, many MANY people who need you!)
(((((racer)))))) i'll give dr eyecandy somethign to be excited aobut. want me to go spank him myself? for some reason though, i think you could do a much better job at it. so, GO SPANK HIM!
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