Posted by Emme on May 6, 2004, at 15:40:42
In reply to Life in General » Emme, posted by Susan J on May 5, 2004, at 8:28:36
Hi Susan,
> >>When this sort of thing happens, does it make you really apprehensive about your next visit?
> <<Totally. And I haven't felt that way in a while; makes me feel like a teenager again. NOT a good feeling.I agree. Hey, it's time for Mother's Day this weekend. I'm a bit nervous about going. She's been convinced for 12 years that I have an eating disorder - which I don't - and makes comments every time I see her. She will also continue to pressure me to move in with her. This would be the most practical thing while I'm out of work. But as my pdoc said, my cortisol levels would probably go up. :) On the plus side, she tends to send me back from visits with boxes of Kleenex and 12-packs of toilet paper and boxes of Pepperidge Farm cookies. The toilet paper fixation makes me laugh, but hey, I'm happy to take them!
> <<God, I feel for you. I'm kind of in the same boat. Work has now slowed down tremendously, like I'm not working at all. Which sounds good, but now I have to *face* my real life, and I screwed myself up bad financially over the past 6 months. I get panic attacks just *thinking* about paying bills. Which is pathetic, because if I just managed my money (budget and all), I'd be fine, but it's like I can't even face the thought of it. How wacked is that? My sleep is messed up, and I've got high blood pressure problems for the first time in my life.
Gawd, I feel for you too. I understand the "too panicked to deal" feeling. It sounds like you've got a bit of the "prairie dog syndrome". Things have simmered down enough in one part of your life to allow you to poke your head above ground and have a look around and.....whoa nellie! Freak out time!
I'm sorry to hear you've developed blood pressure problems. I hope it's temporary. Are you getting enough help from your pdoc and/or therapist to aggressively control your anxiety? It really sounds like you're overloaded on worry.
You're in the DC area, right? Time for a stress-releasing trip to the National Zoo? Wish I were close enough to go - I haven't been there in years.
> I wish I had some good advice for ya, other than hang in there. But I can't even fix it for myself. I'll just give you big hugs...
Thanks. :) Megahugs for you too. (((Susan)))
Emme
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