Posted by Penny on December 10, 2003, at 15:55:34
In reply to Re: Not that I wasn't expecting it, but... » Penny, posted by jane d on December 10, 2003, at 15:45:06
Thanks, Jane.
I'm getting ready to head out in a few, and I've been sitting here this afternoon tense, nervous, nauseated, and nearly in tears. I'm trying to internalize what you said about me not being the problem. But I'm having a hard time - this seems to be a pattern with me and my jobs. I've had three jobs since I've been out of college (full-time jobs, that is), and they all went this way. I would barely get my work done, if I got it done at all, and my bosses would end up thinking less of me. At my first job, they told me to leave my problems at the door, and they rescinded a job offer they had made to me when I wasn't happy enough. My second boss put up with me, but he found my moodiness frustrating as well, even though I tried very hard to not bring it to work. My current boss has been extremely patient, but I know I'm not what he expected when he hired me, and I feel confident that the department would have been better off hiring someone else.
I have a headache now. I am soooo frustrated with myself. I try to not let these things happen - it's not that I WANT to do a bad job - but I can't seem to keep up with everything. I feel overburdened, and I shouldn't.
Oh well...I guess I'll just suck it up for right now and hope that tomorrow's better. And when he comes to talk to me some more, I'll just keep my mouth shut and pray that the tears stay away. Though I know that's not likely...
Thanks.
P
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