Posted by bozeman on March 8, 2003, at 1:24:46
In reply to Re: Keep the faith . . . » bozeman, posted by Miller on March 6, 2003, at 23:56:08
Miller
I've been told I make the best hot cocoa in the world, so ya better get over here. :-)
Please don't take what I said about the pact as me trying to twist your arm or anything. Someday I'll tell you my story . . . not being able to bring myself to commit suicide because of the havoc it would leave for the people I love . . . wanting to die, finding out I was going to die, preparing to die, then not dying, then having to live with the life I thought I was going to leave, and all the mistakes I made, and trying to make it good anyway. All I'm saying is, no matter how hopeless it seems, or how much we think we know, we never quite do know what God has in store for us until we get there. Truly. Bad stuff sometimes happens that we can't prevent, but I don't believe that God does that to us. I do believe he can help us find ways to deal with that bad stuff, though.
That's all I was trying to say with the pact thing -- that we've both been through hell in our own ways, come through so far, and that there's strength in numbers. The walk is easier if you're not alone.
I know you're suffering now, and I am truly sorry for that. I continue to pray for you, Miller, that you find peace, and that your husband realizes in both his mind and heart that this is an illness you are fighting, like a broken leg or cancer even, that causes you pain and makes you behave not like yourself, but that you can, and will, still *be* yourself, in the between times, and after you're through it.
Sleep well, dear soul
bozeman
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