Posted by LibbyH on August 2, 2002, at 16:21:37
In reply to Re: Just don't like people anymore..., posted by Mashogr8 on August 2, 2002, at 11:19:30
MA said...
>> I can definitely relate to not liking people anymore. It is scary, isn't it? I am tired of smiling and saying nice things that are supposed to be said.<<This is it exactly.
>>If they talk too long and ask me a question, I often do not have the answer because I have gotten lost in my own thoughts or empty head.<<
Me, too... Last weekend, I was talking to a woman who was all excited about getting new drapes for her dining room and I couldn't listen for the life of me... I wasn't thinking, "who gives a crap" but on some level, that must be how I feel because I just can't listen to chatter... and if you asked me now, I'd tell you I'd rather be home alone than chattering about some stupid drapes.
That's a real negative attitude... but like you said... I don't cry anymore... My moods are stable... I don't feel unhappy... I just don't get excited about much anymore...
>> This summer has been a godsend. My husband has been away a lot.<<My husband also has major depression and we have lots of stress to deal with - long-term stuff that isn't going away anytime soon. I love him so much and we used to never want to be apart, even after years together. Now I find it taxing to even talk with him. He wants to know why I've changed so much, why I'm not the social person I used to be. But when I tell him why, he can't understand.
>> I'm trying to work on some cluttering problem (disaster) I have and I don't know which friend to trust and beg for help.<<
I don't have this problem anymore. I've pretty much alienated all my old friends by not returning their calls, turning down invitations, making excuses not to see or talk to them... Now there is no one to trust OR distrust. There's just me & my family.
Please post about your progress in therapy. I'm curious what the solution will turn out to be... I sure would like to think there is one... I don't want my husband to live with a hermit forever...
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