Posted by LibbyH on August 2, 2002, at 16:07:34
In reply to Re: Just don't like people anymore... » libbyh, posted by allisonm on August 2, 2002, at 8:07:51
I do see a therapist in addition to a psychiatrist.
When I say my depression is in remission, what I mean is that I don't feel sad all the time, I don't cry for no reason, I don't throw temper tantrums when I'm exhausted anymore, I sleep ok, eat normally, can get to work every day, and function normally. It still takes a LOT of energy but it's important to me that I be able to function, so I put a lot of effort there. For a long time, I couldn't do that much, so this is major improvement for me. This episode has (so far) lasted three years. I'm told that I will have to live with depression for the rest of my life to some extent.
My therapist says that with the people in my life, it's not surprising that I find relationships more draining than fulfilling, so we're working on how I can manage the relationships I already have in a way that's not so draining, but progress is so slow I have my doubts.
It just seems so much *easier* to stick with the status quo than shake things up. Frankly, I'm not sure I'd like how they'd fall out.
The thing that puzzles me is that the way my current relationships are never bothered me until recently, but now... no one - and I mean NO ONE - I know is worth the effort it takes to spend time with them. That's not quite true. I kind of enjoy talking with strangers.
Someone else mentioned apathy. That's a really good description of what this feels like... I know it's a problem and I wish I cared enough to change. What do you do about a state of mind like that?
L.
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