Posted by Penny on June 5, 2002, at 15:50:51
In reply to Can I get on this bus too?, posted by mair on June 5, 2002, at 15:35:01
Wow...we're all in bad shape I think.
My moods are swinging, even though I started a mood stabilizer a week ago. Today I felt bad, then good, then bad, then okay, now I'm heading downhill again. I have therapy tonight and I'm still doing med trials, although they're not doing much at the moment. Somehow I still have faith in my pdoc, as though he has the magical cure for what ails me. And yet another part of is only hanging on b/c I don't know what would happen to my dogs if I went through with it.
Sure wish someone out there could tell us what the answer is. Why is life so especially hard for some of us? I'm SOOOO tired of happy cheerful optimistic upbeat people telling me 'it's going to be okay' or 'you'll beat this, just hang in there.' How do they know???? And if they have beat it themselves, they might know what I feel like, but they still don't know that I'm going to be okay. It's like, enough already. I don't want to hear it anymore.
Told my employer about my entering an intensive outpatient psychiatric program, b/c I felt I owed him an explanation for why I was going to be missing work. And he felt a need to tell HR and they felt a need to refer to me an employee assistance program (free short-term counseling) as though I don't have a therapist and a pdoc who are watching out for me. And I know that a) I should have kept my big mouth shut as it was none of their business to begin with, but it seems I have a hard time learning that lesson, and b) they are just covering their asses by reporting me to the EAP. And I met with the EAP counselor this morning who was nice enough, but she couldn't offer me any assistance. There's just not much help to offer in Charlotte, believe it or not, and that's pretty much what she told me. Only ONE IOP program in the city, unless you need help for chemical dependency. What are the chances?
Sorry that you guys are feeling as crummy as I am, but it does help to know that I'm not alone.
Love to all,
Penny
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