Posted by Penny on June 5, 2002, at 12:28:15
I was feeling very loopy last night. Very out of it, like I couldn't focus and couldn't think straight. Kept thinking all of these weird thoughts and the thoughts didn't follow any logical thinking pattern. I was driving and that was dangerous b/c I wasn't focused, and I went to the drug store to pick up a prescription and they didn't have it ready for me and I kept thinking that it didn't matter b/c I don't want to take the meds anymore b/c they're not doing any good, etc. etc. etc.
I did take my meds, and I felt pretty good yesterday after hearing about my interview, but today I feel back in a rut. Like I could cry any minute. Like I want to die. Completely and totally hopeless and knowing I should call my pdoc but knowing I won't. I'm at work, so at least I know for the time being I'm not going to do anything crazy, but I felt good this morning and then the mood dropped again rapidly. I want to crawl under a rock and stay there. I'm just so tired of playing this little game. It's getting so old.
Sorry to be such a bummer if you've made it this far in my message. I'm just really at my wits end. Everyone on this board has been so supportive, but I'm not sure there's anything else anyone can say to me that's going to make much difference. I keep ending up in this place.
Even with my interview on Friday.
lost penny
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