Posted by Zo on May 8, 2002, at 1:04:36
In reply to Re: I HATE MY LIFE!!! - Zo, posted by Angel Girl on May 8, 2002, at 0:12:20
Angel Girl, You are undermedicated, that's clear. If you saw my pdoc, the first thing he'd suggest would be pushing up Effexor to 375mg. And the blood levels are such that it can be taken all at once. I believe you aren't yet at the minimum dose? It can be pushed beyond 375. .
Borderline is not an easy dx. For one, when I've exhibited borderline behavior, it has really pushed away friends. Seems like one would have to medicate it as skillfully as possible--what is the most recent thinking on BPD meds? Seems like something. . .more soothing and collecting might be helpful as well. I have been so *hugely* less angry since I've been on Lamictal. I added it to Effexor and Dexedrine 8 months ago, and have been depression- free for the first time in my adult life. ..
I highly doubt people are routinely tossing you away, either. People have their own limits, their own limitations--what other people do is very seldom about us. It's just beating oneself up to personalize.
Are you in any kind of therapy? I hear all that rage! Rage is energy is power. . .depression, in my case, was all three turned in on myself, not having any other outlet.
How do you transform all that rage. . into something for yourself. Into another form of energy, not just a death wish. That's what the choice looked like to me.
Angel Girl, it's real doable.
Zo
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