Posted by IsoM on May 7, 2002, at 0:46:22
In reply to Re: I HATE MY LIFE!!!, posted by Angel Girl on May 6, 2002, at 23:54:15
Angel, my theory may be flawed - maybe it's just something to help me but I think the more common you are, the more others that are common can accept you. It's the gems that people have trouble accepting.
I lived for 14 miserable years in a small Prairie town. Most people considered me weird but not in a nice way but as someone to avoid. I had a few good friends, but one was lots older than me & while we liked each other very much, had few interests in common. The other two lived more than 90 miles away & I only got to see them infrequently.
One day, someone I knew quite well from another small town nearby, dropped by to visit. I was very surprised but happy to see her. We didn't have lots in common, but it was nice to see someone. As I invited her in, I told her how pleased I was. She said, with an absolutely stright face & no intent to be insulting, that she'd first gone to see "such 'n such" but she wasn't home. Then she went to another, who was also not home. Tried another but she was out with her sister, & decided since she drove all the way here, she might as well drop by to see me.
That's how I was viewed. I even had another tell me if I wasn't so weird, people would visit me. I asked how I was weird - that if they wanted to talk about recipes & baking, I could. If they wanted to talk about babies, dirty diapers, & burping, I could. I could talk about whatever they wanted. But no - I was too weird. They were the most common, base people I ever knew.
Sorry to say, but that's the world in general - unconcerned, uncaring, & unthoughtful except where it concerns them. But Angel, there are other gems out there, but they're more rare & not as easily found. It took me a long time to find some truly real friends. I had one I met when I was 20 (who's still my best friend) but until I was 38, I never found any others who were close or true. I have some now & they're very precious to me.
You're angry & you deserve to be angry if you've been there for them but they turn their backs on you. They don't deserve to be called friends. But there are good people who won't treat you like that. The hurt gets so, so much to bear sometimes. I wish I could say or offer more. I really do.
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