Posted by Angel Girl on May 7, 2002, at 21:32:42
In reply to I CARE » Angel Girl, posted by Manda on May 7, 2002, at 12:49:59
I'm just so tired of all the hurt. Sure it goes away for a few days, maybe a week or two, but then it comes back in full force. Nobody can stand to be around me. I'm always there for everybody else in there time of need but when it's my turn, I don't get the same compassion. I'm told I don't deserve compassion. I've hurt and angered so many people. I have one friend, or at least I thought she was a friend, that was extremely stressed all weekend. I was with her, I listened, I comforted her, I acted on her behalf and then yesterday I'm not doing well and she says she's sick of my attitude and says she's not going to put up with any of my crap anymore. WTF is that???? My entire weekend's plans were put aside for her and after only one night of me being upset and bitchy she runs for the hills and so does the others. Nobody wants to be with me. I'm too hard to love. Why is it that I can be there for others but my moods are too much for them??? I'm too tired to fight this anymore. I'm desperately hurting and they go on with life like I don't even exist. Life is just the same old thing time and time again. One day you're up and the next you're crashing. It's a vicious cycle. I'm too tired to keep it up. I don't want any more hurt. And I'm realistic enough to know this is not going to be the last time I will be hurt by people who profess to love and care for me. Stop the world, I want off!
Angel Girl
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