Posted by Angel Girl on May 6, 2002, at 23:54:15
In reply to Re: I HATE MY LIFE!!! » Angel Girl, posted by IsoM on May 6, 2002, at 23:26:00
There's no point anymore. I don't fit in anywhere in society. I have one f'ing bad day and display my anger and once again everybody abandons me. I'm tired of even trying anymore. What's the point. Nothing is going to get any better. If I could make everyday good don't they think the f#@% I would???? Do they really think I WANT to be f'ing sick????? Why can't they see beyond their own problems to even try to see things from my point of view for once. Even though "I'm" sick, I have always been there for them, BUT as soon as I have a f'ing pissed off mood and I'm hurting off they go running after they blast me with their extremely harsh words, calling me childish and then tell me that they're not going to put up with me anymore.
I can't get along with people. I can't go through this without friends to be there for me. Fear of abandonment is one of the MAJOR symptoms of my diagnosis and that's EXACTLY what is happening and nobody the f&@# cares. So why should I anymore. I give the f&$@ up!!!! Life HURTS like HELL and I'm tired of all the hurt!!!!
Is it too much to ask to be loved????? I guess so because I can't find it. I don't even think it exists so I'm forgetting the whole f'ing deal.
Angel Girl
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