Posted by paula on January 27, 2002, at 23:02:56
Short version: Emotionally, I'm not a very open person. One of the things I'm working on in therapy is opening up to people more. Asking for help, input when I need it. Well, I've been spiraling a bit lately and actually called a few people (friends and advisor/profs) tonight. On the one hand, I'm proud of myself for having done so. On the other, I'm having the usual post-interaction regret, self-recrimination, and the incessant running back of the "tapes" of these conversations in my mind. For most of my life the easiest way out of this situation has been to just simply browbeat myself and be done with it. Write it all off to my own idiocy, go to bed and forget about it. It's so much harder to just "live with" the fact that I reached out to some people, that I need help on occasion, that everyone does on occasion, etc. etc.
Sound familiar to anyone?
--p (...hoping to silence the "tape" long enough to get my work done....)
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