Posted by Sourceror on December 23, 2001, at 23:45:15
In reply to Re: HHHHHHGGGGGGAR, posted by Sourceror on December 23, 2001, at 22:35:20
Well I got a single dose in me. I wanted to take more but my parents were right there and were checking up on why I was taking more meds. They just don't understand. My dad thinks if I just get up earlier, eat right and shower that things will be better. That alone just pissed me off more. I want to take more pills. It is like a hunger that has built up. Maybe the single does will kick in here soon and I will fall asleep and forget about today. I hate feeling this way and want this episode to be over. It seems like it will never end. I feel like I just keep repeating myself over and over. I want to fix this problem and the only way that keeps coming to mind is pills. It is almost funny that some people are deathly afraid of pills and here I am wanting nothing more in the world then to take a bunch of them. What has short circuited in my friggin head that has me going like this? I don't want to feel like this. I feel like hell and it sucks. Is this what my life is destined to be like? Is it worth going on? I start to wonder more and more each day? How do people do it every day? My life is not that bad in comparison to others so how can I feel this way? Well it looks like I may have made it through today but what does tomorrow bring? I guess I will have to face that tomorrow. Good night for today.
L8R,
The Sourceror
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