Posted by sar on December 10, 2001, at 21:49:02
In reply to Re: nononnoonoononono » sar, posted by Mair on December 10, 2001, at 20:14:27
dear all,
jeez Mair, i wish it were a joke. i stripped at age 18-19 and it was bad for my psyche, it paid the bills very very well but it all hurt, it's extreme exploitation of both the sexes and i've spoken against it since i took an acid trip (at 19), thought about it, and quit the next day.
stilletos do hurt, at least for the first few days. it is nervewracking to imagine myself on stage, i can't really dance but i can prance and stalk...
at first, years ago, i did it to make my life more amusing, i thought it would be glamorous. but really it's tiring, kills your sex drive, and gives you a weird feeling about men.
i got the job because i'm at the end of my rope, i'm like a gypsy now, i own nothing and debt collectors (from my hospital stays) have been calling...and i owe the county for my arrest a few months back.
one debt collector says that if i don't pay nearly $6000 in the month of January that i will have bad credit--which scares me; i am easily scared; i have no credit right now, or at least it's good--rental history and such--
it's the end of the line, a fallback, a strange ball of tears and bills...
Mair, i have to say that i am offended that you would even consider this a joke. if i could express the pain of this decision to folks in real life, i would. this goes for all of my posts. we are anonymous to each other, and can split open our wounds without having to worry about f___ing with reality. as Kid_A says, "what we do is secret."
i do worry about the smoke and freely available alcohol.
on the other hand, i don't even own a mattress or pillow. i am typing this message from generous friends' home...but i need to be on my own.
alot of strippers do have personal problems, a weak sense of self, disrespect for self, or are old alcoholics looking for free drinks all day or night.
it's an interesting job, but i am scared. i am also resourceful.
thanks to all,
sar
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