Posted by Kristi on May 22, 2001, at 0:19:21
In reply to Re: memories » Marie1, posted by shelliR on May 21, 2001, at 21:55:27
> Hi Marie.
>
> Thanks for the answer. It sounds like you are doing really well after only a year. I have been working on this stuff for about six years, but I was (and still am) highly dissociated. I really don't know if I'll ever know all the memories-- have all of the parts of the memories. For the last year and a half I have been dealing with a severe depression and no new memories have come up. When things first came up though I had absolutely no idea. It just started as a voice inside of me telling what "I" had done.
> The voice was very matter of fact at first; later started called me names (wh.re, etc.). Not how anyone else has told me they first knew.
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> I believe your question about shame is such a pertintent one. I think the things that I still won't fully remember do have to do with being afraid of shame. The things I really know about and believe are things that happened at age three. I think I am able to remember and accept them because at age three I don't blame myself, so the shame element is not there. No matter how many times my therapist tells me I was not responsible at age eight, it still is hard for me to accept. So I think I stay blocked. I have the information, but not the reality of the details. I question my beliefs, but my sister doesn't.This is so interesting to me. I can't say I can relate........ YET anyway, but I'm already learning alot here.
> I know I asked the question first, but since things are starting to come up on the board about "implanting" memories, it is hard for me to talk any further about this on a public board. It is a topic that greatly upsets me; actually really makes me very very angry. When that happens, I think the best thing for me is to withdrawal from the conversation. I do not want to get involved in defending hypnosis (although now I use mostly EMDR) or repressed memories.I'm sorry if your feeling uncomfortable Shelli... I'm the one who brought the topic up to begin with. I understand why you don't want to get involved in the tread and in defending hypnosis.. but I am certainly intrested in your view. I really am. But again, I understand if you want to stay away from the topic. Thanks for your views so far...... I appreciate them. I'm sure the fact that the board as been kind of hostile lately doesn't help any...... Kristi
> Horrible things happen to children , so horrible that the only way to cope is to "forget". The horrible things were not created by our therapists.
Agreed!
> And I'm so sorry that you have to deal with shame at all.
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> Shelli
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