Posted by tina on January 14, 2001, at 16:27:59
In reply to Help my heart is broken, posted by Lexie on January 14, 2001, at 14:49:20
Do not think that you leaving was a cruel thing Lexie. It's crueller to stay and bring up a child in an unhappy home. My parents stayed together for the kids and I now have many emotional scars that are affecting my own life in a very negative way. You did what was right and never doubt that. All your little boy needs is to know that you love him and that you'll be there for him whenever he needs you. And from what I hear from your post, you do love him and you are there for him. You did the right thing. Be kind to yourself. It doesn't matter what your husband says, he is lashing out at you from a place of pain and rejection. It isn't your fault. As long as your little boy knows you love him and you show it everytime you're together, you are all he needs. I know you're a wonderful mom.
Big Hugs
Tina> I know I have been gone for a while. I haven't even had the energy to ask for help. As some of you know I recently lost custody of my 5 year old. The pain of only seeing him every other weekend and on Wednesday evenings for 2 hours is more than I can take. Last night I blew him a kiss and he told me I had "Magical" kisses and he would miss me when I wasn't around. I take him home at 6 tonight and I feel so much pain. He always begs me to stay. I have to close the door to his room. I wont sleep tonight. Does it ever get better? My husband keeps reminding me that "my" leaving was the cruelist thing anyone could ever do to a 5 year old. I feel like 2 happy homes is better than one bitter angry one. I could sure use some hugs right now. Lexie
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