Posted by tdaneen on January 7, 2001, at 14:10:50
Well, to anyone that decides to respond to this (some of you will remember me and my history), for those who don'tI just want to let you know that I'm a BPII currently taking 150-225mgs effexor, 20mgs adderall, and 200mgs topamax per day. I have only been hospitalized once, for four and half days only two and a half months ago.
I am currently (eh gads! STILL) in the process of a divorce. I believe that is what is triggering my current depressive episode (or relapse if you prefer that term).
You see, my ex-to-be and I have been seperated for over a year, and we are just now going in for our first court date. This was supposed to only be for temporary support, however, he had his attorney file an additional paper adding to the docket. So, now he is also trying to prove that I been refusing him visitation! That being completely untrue, as he has our child for three nights every other weekend, and at least one or two week nights every other week (I HAVE kept a calandar of each and every one-thank you).So now that I have bored you with my personal life, I need to get to the impact it has been having, and my fears of going to court.
I'm your basic atypical BPII. I have been sleeping more, but it is strange that I'm not eating. When I stop eating that is when I start getting manic. By this time normally I'm doped up on carbohydrates, and sluggish.
I've been VERY, VERY grouchy. I'm not thinking clearly most of the time, and increasing my effexor hasn't seemed to help. I'm afraid that I will continue to spiral until my court date (tuesday). If it goes badly...then hopefully if I start to bottom out I won't have to keep the effexor at a higher dose for very long. If all goes well...hopefully I won't start to spiral up. It is weird. I'm right in the middle (Hmmm mixed episode?!?)and if I don't get it stabilized quickly I could get out of control quickly. And THAT is not only something that I work very hard to control, but at this point something that my soon-to-be-ex would want.So, does anybody have any suggestions for short-term stability? I need some ideas on how to make it through these next two days...I promise I'll call myPdoc on Wed., no matter how it goes.
poster:tdaneen
thread:3759
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