Posted by Cass on October 23, 2000, at 14:13:53
In reply to Re: Cass, are you thinking about ... » Cass, posted by Rzip on October 23, 2000, at 0:44:43
> I was wondering if you want to share with us what prompted the death thoughts. From your previous thread on "reasons to live" you must feel so bad to be thinking about death. I know I would be extremely miserable if I started to think about suicide again. Usually, in my depressive state, I sometimes start to formulate a plan. How about you?
I have no idea what started these death thoughts. Like I said before, the problems I'm having are no different than the ones I've had for a long time. It was as if a horrible, heavy weight suddenly descended upon me. It has been like a terrible flu but on a psychological level. I suppose this is physiological in nature. Today, I continue to feel better though. As for a plan, sure, I have a plan which I'd rather not share, but as I start to recover, the likelihood of enacting it seems more remote. I think the worst has passed. I can only hope that this never happens to me again. Depression is truly a potentially fatal illness. It is hell. I did tell my therapist about this, and it's funny because he just seems to think I'm doing so well even though I told him otherwise. I'm not knocking him though. I like him.
> At the same time, I was wondering if I can >have your permission to ask the others on this board to respond. I understand that you hesitate to make a "big deal" out of this. But, this is a support group and I think its mission should be honored. What do you think? May I contact some of the other regulars on this board? Actually, I was thinking a professional respondent would be betterI suppose you mean email them, but most likely they will see the thread anyway. If you think some particualar people will have some insight for me, please go ahead and contact them if you want. As for a professional respondent, I think we are made up of lay people, so I'm not sure that is possible. (Dr. Bob's role here has always been moderator not therapist.) In any case, I appreciate any positive feedback. The only kind of feedback I don't like is from people who are preachy or demeaning, and that probably will not be a problem. Thanks for caring.
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