Posted by antigua3 on June 3, 2009, at 11:11:09
In reply to Re: To All.. Sorry, but very, very long.. » antigua3, posted by Dinah on June 3, 2009, at 9:46:46
You have a wonderful T, but you know that already.
"Dying off" of parts has been a recurrent theme in my therapy for years so it's not unusual that this would come up at all. In the past, I've wanted her to die because she was in a different form, and it wasn't one I cared for, to put it mildly. But she didn't die, or wouldn't really, she just became stronger and developed into this person I love very much.
Maybe she is sending me signals that she needs to go underground, that all this intense work is too much for her--especially the opening up to a male figure. So maybe I should just be hopeful that she isn't gone for good. Thank you.
You're also right that he probably wouldn't want me to think that the "father" wants the "daughter" to die. Maybe I went over the top there, so thanks for reigning me back in.. At that point, he was being the intellectual therapist and I was responding like a child. We're still out of synch on this and will have to talk about it.
To be fair, when I dwell on the dying, he talks about it being a rebirth instead.
I'm sorry to have been so melodramatic. It was just the most painful session I think I ever had. I could call him, but what would I even say?
Thank you again for your thoughtful post and being brave enough to read all that I wrote!
antigua
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