Posted by Dinah on April 22, 2009, at 8:00:08
In reply to Re: Feeling melancholy, posted by Annierose on April 22, 2009, at 6:23:03
I just don't know. I'm pretty sure it was something in the session. I've been wanting to call him and cry, but I don't know that it would do any good until I figure out why I want to cry.
Maybe it was remembering when he didn't like me. Maybe it was the fact that he acknowledged that he'd let me down in my postpartum days, in some pretty unprofessional and unforgivable ways, but he didn't express real regret or sorrow over my pain. He has this way of cheerfully admitting he screwed up that makes me feel like he's a wee bit too comfortable with it. In fact, maybe it was his laughing tone of remembrance of the whole thing that is making me feel bad. Yes, it's nice that he fondly recalls our first days together from the security of our present relationship. But it hurt a lot. It still hurts a lot. And he doesn't acknowledge the hurting part of it.
Does that mean I have figured it out?
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