Posted by fleeting flutterby on April 4, 2009, at 14:56:21
In reply to Tomorrow is coming too fast!! yikes!, posted by fleeting flutterby on April 1, 2009, at 16:27:47
> .... mother's life is in shambles(health wise and emotionally) as she prepares to move back near me-- and live with her boyfriend- and leave her trailer(hundreds of miles away) empty, as it won't sell. I've always always been her surrogate mother since I was 13 when my dad had his first heart attack.(he's now deceased) I don't know HOW to make things better for her.....she always asks me what she should do-- then if I say something and it doesn't work out she gets mad at me and tells everyone what a horrible daughter she has..... feels so overwhelming..... ugh.... :o(
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------ Hope it's OK to put this here... feels safe here..........If I'm out of line please let me know.....I apologize, in that case....
**caution-- may trigger**
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------ mother "flat lined" last night in the ER- they ran her in for an immediate pacemaker.... so she has that now and has to stay in hospital with total bed rest for a few days.----
anxiety rises as I can't help... there's nothing I can do, especailly since she is so far away. My sister near her doesn't want to stay and keep mother company in hospital. I s'pose when one gets old, sometimes one reaps what they have sown... mother didn't like to care for us children when we were ill or injured, so now I guess sister has morphed into a being like mother....*sigh*....
feels so helpless, as mother calls me, saying how lonely she is and how sister won't come to hospital...
helpless-- like when I was 19 years old watching that woman... as the current took her away....she shouldn't have been in that river with the heavy spring run-off(why did her and her companions have to be drinking?).... I coudln't help her!!... the water was too fast and deep.... argh....
am I worth much if I can't help? ......
flutterby-mandy
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