Posted by fleeting flutterby on April 2, 2009, at 17:24:54
In reply to Tomorrow is coming too fast!! yikes!, posted by fleeting flutterby on April 1, 2009, at 16:27:47
First, before I reply to the posts I'd like to say-- I did go!! I was so nervous.... I got a bloody nose just before I went in.... do you think that could have been caused by stress?? I never get a bloody nose....*shrugs*.....
anyway--I told her how it was so very hard to show up there today.... she wanted to know why.... I said that since I had called her(last month) and revealed some of myself(crying), that which I keep protected from everyone, I felt it could be unsafe to be there..... I told her how I grew up knowing that I can't depend on ANYONE and if I think I can that's when I get hurt. She said that everyone needs someone at some time or other in their life... and that showing upset emotions can be helpful... huh.. imagine that!!....
And then she asked me if I felt safe there today, and I said, "yes, I do actually". and then she said-- "because if one doesn't feel safe in the therapy room then progress can't be made"... huh.. imagine that too!!It all made sense and so we then went on to talk about all the c#ap that's in my life at this moment.
phew... I am so relieved it's over and that it turned out to be NOT as bad as I feared.... phew....
maybe sometimes somethings can be good.
flutterby-mandy
poster:fleeting flutterby
thread:888079
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