Posted by B2chica on November 18, 2008, at 8:32:30
...in theory it's exactly what i want and need right now. i've been wanting another child for over a year now and my DH still "isn't ready". at first he was telling me that he didnt' want anymore and i went through all that emotion. now he is saying he wants one...but "saying it" doesn't get you one (if you know what i mean).
-its hard enough for me to be intimate lately-depression and all, but i try to initiate it and keep getting turned down. which in turn REALLY increases depression.
or if we do have sex he refuses to get near me without a condom. which actually makes me feel like he looks at me like i'm some diseased whore.(that's how i feel and i Hate that term-whore)i've been having dreams of a guy friend of mine. and keep thinking, what if.
i want the closeness and the affection not necessarily the actual sex of an affair. and to be with someone that accepts me for me.
that would be willing to give me what i need.i really don't think i'd do it cuz i'm so self consious of my body and i have basically no opportunity but i can't get it out of my mind.
i want to be held, caressed, touched with care and desire...and create a new life.
to complete my family. why cant he see that i'm not getting younger. i'm already WAY older than i Ever thought i'd be having kids.b2c.
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thread:863752
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