Posted by seldomseen on April 3, 2008, at 15:46:21
There are a lot of things that are wrong (allergies, lazy - and I mean astronomically lazy students, pet problems, bills I forgot to pay, messy house AND i have one of those inflamed "taste buds" right on the tip of my tongue).
I guess the thing that is bothering my the most are my dreams. The intensity and frequency of them. Most are nightmares.
In the past week I dreamed that I
1. Poisoned a bunch of people at a local diner
2. Shot my mom while she was coming up the stairs in the house I grew up in. In my defense, she and my dad both were demons trying to kill me.
3. Dreamt that my car was vandalized and my brother threw me on the ground over it and was repeatedly kicking my back.
4. Dreamt that I was pregnant and stuck in an airport with my ex-boyfriend who kept telling everyone was a slut I was and how he never wanted to be with me.
I don't know what tonight's dreams will hold, or if I will even try to sleep.
I don't know why I'm dreaming about all this stuff, if it's the buspar, the allergies or whatever (it's probably the students).
I just have to hold on until Monday and hopefully my T and I can get to the bottom of it.
I'm stressed and anxious and just have all of these awful dream images stuck in my head.