Posted by Daisym on March 21, 2008, at 0:30:09
In reply to Left Therapy Sad today..this is hard(trigger?), posted by rskontos on March 20, 2008, at 12:04:22
I believe there is a core-self and this is the real you. This core might not fully formed because you have split into so many pieces.Right now they each carry something valuable that is also a true reflection of you. We have to remember that our shadow side exists along side our more social side. Your protector came into being for a reason. As much as you'd like to banish her, this is potentially dangerous. But if you call a family meeting in your head and thank her, acknowledge her fears and triggers, you might find that she is quieter. She trust that "you" won't get into situations where "she" needs to take over. And the more you push down, the more she pushes back - so no wonder you are tired and she is strong right now.
Given the frequency of you flashbacks and how invasive they are, I think you might consider visiting your pdoc. There are medications that can help with this. Once the constant terror and crisis is under control, you can work more effectively on the deeper issues. Otherwise you are using all your energy just to survive the pictures in your mind.
This is not an easy task. You are very brave for facing it straight on and talking about it. I admire how your therapist defends some of your alters and is really trying to show you that he can be with you in your hurt and fear.
I hope you can put it away for the weekend though.
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