Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 18, 2007, at 10:23:57
In reply to Re: Been having more psycho episodes » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by OzLand on June 17, 2007, at 23:30:04
> Sorry, but we don't get to choose when this stuff pops up. God knows, I sure did not want it to pop up two years ago, but it did. Yes it sounds like you are having depersonalization and dissociative episodes. So, think about what you are trying to stuff back away, and this will clue you to what you need to talk about in therapy. It won't go away, and you already know that keeping busy doesn't make it go away either. Wish it did, I would be the queen of denial and avoidance if it did.
Yeah, why is that? Is it an environmental trigger? I think it was, in my case (combination of dissertation stress/advisor transferrence/body work with a man. And the more I fight it, the worse it gets, until it occupies SO much of my mental space that I cannot do anything else but ruminate on my symptoms and resist resist and pretend that all is normal. Such a struggle.
I think I already hold the title of Queen of Avoidance. However, if you'd like an honorary title, I may bestow one on you after talking to my privy council.
I also hold the title PoPPP, Princess of PolyPsychoPharmacy, however, my favor with the pdoc has declined in recent weeks, and I'm not sure if I will be able to maintain that title with the new pdocs.
On a more serious note, I'm not sure if I'm ready to talk about ANYTHING in therapy. See, this month marks the transition between newT (who I'm saying farewell to) and quieT (who I'm just starting to know) so far so good, but we'll see how things progress...
I feel like there's no one to talk to, and I'm bad at asking for help. Many of the resources that I had as a student are no longer available :( I feel a keen loss of pdoc and dear friends. :(
Thanks for your words, I figure you're a few steps ahead of me. Le me know what happens down the road, k?
-Ll
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