Posted by gazo on March 23, 2007, at 18:25:00
In reply to Re: Freaking out over letter to T :( » gazo, posted by Dinah on March 23, 2007, at 17:59:16
> I'm sorry. I've been on something of a work roll, and not focusing as well as I could be.
no, don't be sorry.. it's not your fault. It's mine. i stomp in here with barely a hello and say the wrong things and expect more than any reasonable person should.
> I'm not entirely sure of your situation with the new therapist as much as I could be. Do you have much of a choice in therapists?
There was some policy that prevented him from making a recommendation... subsidized services vs private i guess. My pdoc recommended a few but i skipped the women, one guy wouldn't talk to me because i have bp and the last one was so old he couldn't possibly connect to me. i ran out of recommended people. i ended up searching the local psych association and calling around. i wanted someone male in an age range closer to my own. i live in a medium size city so there were a few around... sad thing is that most of them are up there is age. Not meaning to say anything is wrong with being older.. but i have issues that an older T wouldn't understand the context of... if that makes sense.
>..before you get too attached to a new therapist, because that's when it hurts least to leave.
i don't think i have a choice anymore. i am so deep in crisis that i have to have *somebody* I met him just once. He seemed nice, but more business-like than my former T... he was so relaxed.
oh god i miss him so much.
> Or in some areas of the world, you can pretty much assume that all therapists will be CBT.
that is pretty much what i see here.. or at least that is what they advertize
> ...he was the only person I spoke to who seemed genuinely interested in working with me.
that is my experience too.. :( makes me feel more like a monster.
> You've missed an important work deadline? I can see why you're upset. It's a shame the weekend comes before your meeting with your boss. Are you sure you'll be let go?
pretty much. I was warned and given an extra week to finish. My only hope would be to work around the clock all weekend... i'm trying but i can't think, and i just cry.