Posted by gazo on March 23, 2007, at 17:58:14
In reply to ((((((gazo))))))))), posted by Happyflower on March 23, 2007, at 17:33:15
Thank you! I am crying.. it is so nice of you to care. i feel like i don't deserve it. i thought maybe i had said something wrong and upset everyone... i often say the wrong thing and drive people away. i don't mean to hurt people!
i am so desperately anxious and lonely. I try to put it in words in the letter and i can't get it down.
i feel like i am some kind of monster. i am a freak trying to live among people... i look so great to everyone around me. they all say how great everything is... it's a lie. i live a lie.
i walk around terrified that somebody will notice what a monster i am.