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oh wow... laurie called

Posted by wishingstar on December 20, 2006, at 10:34:59

In reply to Re: not connecting with T (long), posted by wishingstar on December 20, 2006, at 8:58:45

I just had the weirdest experience. In a good way.

Laurie called me 2-3 weeks ago to check in and see how I was, but I missed her call. Since then I'd left 2 "heres an update, call if you can/want to" messages, the latest being a few days ago. I figured shed call back at some point, but since shes an old T, I didnt really know when and wasnt expecting it at any certain time.

I went outside today to clean out my car and on a whim brought my cell with me. I've tried to keep it with me lately because I know shed call eventually, but I generally have it with me anyway. But I decided to grab it and put it in my pocket. I hate missing calls. So I clean out my car and I'm walking back up the stairs to my apartment, and it rings. I didnt recognize the number. It was her. What are the chances? I guess it was her cell. How weird is that?

We talked for about 10 min. In my last message I'd made mention of not feeling connected with Ginny and she asked about that. I told her that I know it's me, not Ginny, etc etc.. and Laurie encouraged me to talk to her about it. She gave me a good suggestion. She said I can mention how she (Laurie) called me today to check in and recount the conversation for Ginny as a way to easily lead into the issue. I think I am going to do that. It's much easier than just bringing it up out of the blue.

We only talked a few minutes, but at the end she said that shes thinking of me and that I'm not alone because shes always out there wondering, etc etc... and she said that I can know what she is always watching me and what I do because we have that connection. I told her that last bit was a little scary and we both laughed. But I know what she meant. I really wonder how much of all that is really "real" for her.. real on an emotional level. Am I one of those special clients for her? I feel like one. And how much is just her saying the words I need to hear, not that she doesnt care or doesnt think of me of course, but how much is really.. I dont know what. I guess I just wonder how she feels. How important I am to her. But really, what a good feeling. It feels almost like a safe parent in the wings. I know she's there and she cares, no matter how crazy and hard things are with Ginny or anywhere else.

So yes, I'm going to go into my appt with Ginny tomorrow feeling a little safer, a little more able to talk, I think. The timing for this was amazing.


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